Last 10 days in pictures! Whew!!!

10/5/13 - On the mend and feeling much better with myself. Started wit my hair, got that fixed! Like it way better!

10/6/13 Homecoming Dress Shopping!!

10/7/13 - 10/9/13 Weighing in! It's OK, I will get past this hump! I am not giving up and getting back on track!

And working out! Lots!

 10/8/13 - 10/11/13 Lots and Lots of Volleyball Games!!

More working out!! Sweaty goodness! Feeling great!

10/9/13Went to the doctors, had a fill and talked to the social worker! Back to 7.3 cc's in my 10 cc band! Feeling so much better!

10/10/13 More volleyball!

10/11/13 Took a little break! Music with a good friend!

10/12/13 Homecoming weekend! Parade & Football game!

 

And the Homecoming Dance!! The girls looked so great and had a wonderful time!! **tear** they are growing up so fast...

And tomorrow is weigh in day! Good or bad it's gonna be ok!

 

Lots happening this week too. I have a meeting with my mother this Thursday.  I expect it to be rough and difficult. But I am going to speak my mind and tell it like it is. Regardless of the outcome, I will be ok!

 

Tomorrow, we Zumba & EA Active. Maybe elliptical there is time. I am going to be ok! 

 

See you all tomorrow! :)

Cheers!

~Chris~

Reboot Day 9...I am still here and still plugging away....

Hello there....I know it's been a few days...
I am still here. I have been really busting my butt working out and working on getting my eating under control. It's coming along but it is been slow.

What have I been doing?!?!
I have done Zumba on my Wii twice, I have used the elliptical 3 times I think, I have ran on the treadmill twice, strength trained twice, done EA active. I have burned between 300 and 600 calories a day. And I have worked out every day this week except Monday. So I have 5 days in this week. On the work out front I am doing great! Tomorrow will probably be a rest day.

Todays workout, 20 minutes on the elliptical, 15 minutes running on the treadmill and 20 minutes strength training.

On the food front its been better but not really good enough. I have been eating even when I am not hungry, eating just to eat. I have been pumping the water for the last 3 days though.

I have been doing a lot of thinking. I am depressed, and I know it. I just don't know how to get out of it. I've been here before. When I was in high school I was suicidal I was so depressed. As an adult I am not suicidal any more, and for the most part I haven't been depressed. But this last month I feel 2 inches tall, riddled with guilt, and like a failure.

I go to my therapist on Wednesday, I really want to talk to her. I really need something, I just wish I knew what it was. I know this all stems from what happened with my mother. But I never imagined I would struggle like this.

The good news? I know what is going on with me, and I am working to fix it. I'm trying....

Tuesday night I died my hair. It was getting too blonde so I went back to my natural color. Brown.

And I took a new pitcture

I am happy with the color!

But....

 

To top every thing off I went and got a hair cut, my hair was pretty dry and really needed to be cut. It came out way to short and I really don't like it. It makes me feel worse.

Usually I wouldn't really care what my hair looked like...It's only hair, it will grow back. But right now, it just makes me feel worse. SO Tomorrow I am getting hair extensions. I just don't need another reason to be disgusted when I look in the mirror.

 

My youngest had a band concert Wednesday. The kids all did a great job!

OK I think that's enough semi depressing blogging for the day. So on that note! Have a great night folks. Tomorrow is a volleyball day. And hair extensions!

 

Oh today's eating was good until I went to lunch with my daughter. I'm still trying....

Sweet Dreams!

~Chris~

Reboot Day 5...

Well I missed my weigh in today....darn!! I will weigh in tomorrow. I, however and not expecting good results.

What did I do this weekend? There was lots of food involved. Saturday I was so tired from waking up at 4:30 in the morning that I didn't work out. My nephew was here so we went to the movies with him! We went to a place where you can eat and watch a movie at the same time, he wanted to see Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs 2 so that is what we did. It was pretty good I do have to say.
I didn't make good food choices.  But we made funny faces together!

Saturday night was a birthday dinner with My Lovely. It was nice to get together with her! We have both been so busy that we haven't been able to get together for weeks! We had a delicious cold cheese dip as an appetizer and I chose Cobb salad for dinner. Then she ordered desert...of course I ate it, we shared. Too much food this weekend.

Sunday I did work out. I did the elliptical for 20 minutes, ran on the treadmill for 30 minutes, and then did some strength training with my resistance bands. I so didn't want to work out but I forced myself to do so. I'm glad I did!

I was somewhere around 500 calories burned during my workout.

Today was super busy, I didn't have time to work out today. I had to get paperwork to my accountant so we could get our taxes filed. I put it off til the last minute and it took me too long this morning.

Food day was great until around 9:30. Then I caved and had 2 cookies and a bowl of cereal. Talk about sabotage. So I finished the day with way to many calories, 1576.

On the upside, I did log my food today for the first time in a month. I was planning on doing protein shakes for a few days but I am out of protein powder. There is some on order.

OK Anyway, tomorrow is a new day! And I really need to get serious again and stop feeling sorry for myself.

I 'm a little confused by this weight gain. I haven't been eating great. But I know I am not eating 7000 calories a day. Hell I know I'm not even eating 3500 calories a day. I am not getting in my water and I have been working out all week. For 2 weeks now and I am gaining. WTH?

My routine has changed so much its horrible and my results are totally showing it. So, I am going to bed so I can start again tomorrow. My eyes are closing too.

Sleep well everyone! And thanks for stopping by! :)
~Chris~

It's 5 o'clock somewhere....Reboot day 3....

And I am awake! On a Saturday, for no apparent reason. And I am out of Candy Crush lives, and all my Facebook Friends are asleep. WTH?!?!?

Not sure why I am awake at this hour. Mornings are not really my thing, especially 5 in the morning!

Since the entire house is still asleep it's a tad too early to start up the treadmill. I think sound of running might sound like a freight train at this hour. And it is too early to go outside, and too dark. Plus it was supposed to freeze last night. AH fall in Colorado!

So I sit with a cup of Chai, FB and Candy Crush. Since all of those have already been exhausted, I will blog!

Yesterday I made more progress towards my reboot. Not perfect, the sweets are killing me. But I did work out. I was running late yesterday so I didn't get to elliptical, but I Zumba'd! On the Wii, and took O'ryan for a walk. Burned 367 calories.

Forgot again to log my food. Hopefully today I can remember to do that.

 

Hollee gave me an idea that had never crossed my mind! Thanks Hollee! Using protein shakes to aide in my reboot. I like this idea and I think I will give it a try. Beginning Sunday. I have plans later tonight with a friend to go out for dinner.

 

I actually like protein shakes. So I think I could do a few days of then just to help here. And keep up with the workouts too.

 

Today was chilly here in Colorado. As a matter of fact there is a freeze warning in effect or there was. I think it expired at 5 am. So as I was bundled on my recliner watching a movie with my nephew tonight, my kitty decided she was cold too. Or maybe she was just hiding. So I leave you with a picture of Frost on this frosty Colorado morning. She was dozing under the blanket with me :)

Cheers!

~Chris~

 

PS. I think I will get some reading of our blogs in! Since I'm up! ;-)

 

 



Reboot..Day 2...

If I was a computer, a reboot would simply take a matter of minutes. Holding down a power button for 7 seconds, the computer turns off, pressing that same button again turns the computer back on and within a couple of minutes, the computer is working again. Technically I guess this is a cold reboot.

I think that's what's happening here with me. I have began a cold reboot. I am shutting down system to clear the glitches and start a new. I think I am going to have to shut down the system a few times to get it right.

Today was better. Not perfect, and not exactly what I am striving for, but better. Naturally I know that perfect is impossible. And I am totally fine with that. Forward progress is what I want. And Today was better. OK I've said that 3 times now :)

What was better about today?

I got up and I worked out pretty good today! I ran on my treadmill for 30 minutes. Well I ran 20 walked 10 for a total of 1.74 miles! 1.25 miles was jogging. I was pretty excited about being able to do this since I haven't really ran in about 2 months. I have been working at it slowly over the last 2 weeks.

And then I did some strength training with my resistance bands. I have a set of like 5 exercises I do and I do 3 reps of 10. I like the resistance bands, I can keep them in a drawer and I don't have any weights to worry about. I have 4 bands and they all range in resistance. I burned a good amount of calories.

That helped produce my sweaty look.....ewwwww.... LOL

After that I took Oryan for a walk. We have been going everyday after I work out. He absolutely loves it! And he gets really excited to go. So by 9:30 this morning my fitbit said I had almost 6K steps! Looks like I am going to finish the day out with about 9K.

So what struggles did I have today? I totally forgot to log my food and I couldn't stay away from the sugar. I had 2 swiss rolls and 3 cookies ....blah..... Tomorrow will be better.

 

I was happier with my scale this morning. And I got a good amount of water in today. About 96oz. Only 24oz short of my daily goal.

 

Tomorrow we work on no sugar, or at least much less, logging my food, and getting 120oz if water in.

 

Gotta get back in the routine! Tomorrow is a Wii Zumba, elliptical day. Supposed to be chilly and rainy. Hopefully it will be dry enough to take Oryan for a walk.

 

My nephew is coming down to spend the weekend with us. Hopefully we will have nice weather so he can see some of his friends this weekend.

 

OK Signing off. Tomorrow is FRIDAY!!! YAY!!! Have a great night everyone!

~Chris~