I have been angry (OVER THE TOP)!
I have been stressed (TOO MUCH)!
I have been sad (A LOT)!
I have been lonely (OFTEN)!
BUT, I have a new appreciation for my small family of 4. I look at the smiles on the faces of my girls and those smiles have new meanings.
I turned 40 this year. Age ain't nothing but a thing. But, I've learned a lot this year. One of the most important lessons I've learned and the most challenging to overcome? Unlearn that which has caused the most negative over the last 40 years. And I am talking about this in more ways then just the weight aspect.
The second most important lesson I've re-learned (I learned this long ago but forgot sometime in 2012)? Surrounding myself with positive people and positive energy changes my outlook on life and makes me want to be better!
I have learned to love differently.
I have learned that loving me is not selfish.
I have learned that no matter how hard I try, I cannot fix everything.
I have learned that smelling the roses along the way, slows things down just enough to put things in perspective.
I have made some major life changing decisions, one of which includes having lap band surgery. I have lost 39.8 lbs prior to today, my clothes are baggier, and I feel much better.
I wasn't expecting big results at this weeks weigh in....but.... today's weight.... 234.0!! Down 1 lb since Christmas Eve a week ago! Totally UNEXPECTED!!
So here are my totals:
40.8 lbs down since 8/22/12!
26.2 lbs down since surgery on 10/15/12!
So tonight what will I toast to??
To lessons learned and the unknown!May 2013 bring what it will bring.
May I be wise enough find happiness
and peace it whatever the future holds
and offer forgiveness.
I hope your New Year is filled with happiness and peace, hope and forgiveness, and love and family!
May you look forward to the unknown.
Be safe and enjoy the celebration as we ring in the New Year!