Yesterday I experienced my first Non-Scale Victory (NSV)!! This blouse used to be so tight it was uncomfortable. It was too tight in the arms and the waist was totally at the max stretch wise. When I wore the blouse yesterday, I had room in the arms and there was a good amount of stretch in the waist. YAY ME!! Starting to get more and more compliments saying I'm shrinking too!
Kind of excited to weigh in on Monday. Never thought I would be saying that!!
Originally I was using wonton wrappers to make mini pizzas. There is only 80 calories in 4 wrappers and they crisp up so nice. It's like an ultra thin pizza crust. I think I originally saw this on The world according to Eggface's website.
So tonight we made burritos. I was not planning on having a tortilla so I had salad with it instead. I toasted some wonton wrappers in the toaster oven for about 3 minutes and then crushed them into my salad. It was like eating a taco salad and it was great! And my salad was only 274 calories total!
I so love these litte wonton wrappers. What else can I think of to do with them?!?!?
Luckily despite recent developments in my world I have been able to control my stress eating. On Monday I found out that the company I work for is being sold. And even worse then that we are all losing our jobs. I have been with this company for almost 7 years. And I have really enjoyed the friendships I have built. March 1st will be our last day. So the count down begins.
There are about 250 people that will be laid off. I have never been laid off before. I don't know exactly what the future holds for me at this point. I have been in this line of work for 17 years and I don't know if it's a midlife crisis or what but I don't want to stay in this line of work. So....I need to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.
Thank goodness for hump day! That means we are 1/2 way there!
OK so the last few days have been super stressful. Apparently it has made me so tired I forgot to chew totally tonight. I had a close call. Almost had a "Stuck"episode again. Luckily I was able to avoid it and it was not super painful.
So...lesson for tonight....Don't forget to CHEW, CHEW, CHEW!!!
Dispite the stress I have not been over eating. This is a good thing!
Thanksgiving was pretty good. I walked 2 miles & I didn't over eat. And I only sampled the deserts. Friday was our anniversary and I did ok. We went to the Melting Pot for dinner. I did have some of the chocolate Fondue. But I didnt overeat. Saturday started out well. I swam early afternoon. But I Had a McFlurry when I was out with my daughter tonight.
Not good. I feel so guilty and I do not expect good results for Monday's weigh in.
I have made a decision! Tomorrow I will avoid the food coma!
I am determined! And I don't want to get sick! The whole PB thing scares me. Especially after my experience last week! I am still working on what my "Full Level" feels like to me, I think tonight I went a little past it. I am not uncomfortable but I could be less full and I would be fine. Tomorrow I will pay extra special attention!
Yes I am cooking a ton of food for the amount of people that are coming over. We are going to have lots of yummy left overs.
I am going to work out with my EA Active in the morning after the turkey is in the oven as well.
So I have been swimming with my heart monitor the last few days and today was the most exciting.
I swam for a total of 33.4 minutes and the calorie burn was so cool to see!! First round was this...
Naturally being at 286 calories wasn't quite good enough. Such an odd number. SO..... all I needed was this....
2 more minutes gave me 17 more calories! So 303 calories for basically swimming hard for 33.4 minutes. I feel accompished today! I think thats pretty darn good!
Boy today I felt like I could have eaten a ton more food than I did. I was able to control myself by staying busy. Although I did have a 1/2 cup of dry cereal tonight.
I finished the day at 661.5 calories and 70.33 grams of protien. I know I need to get more calories in. Sometimes I do have a hard time with that. I went swimming tonight too. Maybe thats why I was so hungry tonight.
So if this keeps up I definately will need more fill next month. I am scheduled for mid December. I am going to use will power until then and keep exercising.
Yes I cheated...
We had our monthly Birthday Celebration at work today and I had a brownie sundae. I had about 1 tbsp each of the 3 flavors of ice cream and a brownie bite. Came home and calculated the calories and WOW!!! 300 calories in the tiny little bit!
I keep track of protien, sugar, fat and calories on a spreadsheet like this.... gives me a good idea. I usually float around 900 calories a day.
So I have been really wanting to find a way to track the calories I am burning during my workouts. I have used My Fitness Pal, I have a fit bit that I wear and I've tried tracking the activities on that website too. I have also wanted to find a way to track my calories burned while I am swimming. Since I do a lot of that and it is my main work-day exercise. So upon doing some reseach I found that the best way to track calories burned is to use a heart monitor. OK Cool. I can do that. I found a decent one at Big 5 for only $80. And on the upside! It's water resistant to 30 meters! This should totally work.
I tested it out today while I did my Wii Fit Yoga & EA Active today. It was so exciting for me to see these results. TOTALLY made me feel like I am accomplishing something great!
Check me out!
Now if only I can remember to stretch AFTER I work out like my darling friend told me too :)
Progress comes in all forms. This is exciting for me as I feel like something is finally headed in the right direction. This time line makes me feel that I have made positive changes!
April 6th - Started pre-Lapband Journey - Talked to the doctor about the possibility of surgery. Signed up, found out about the insurance requirements, found out I had to quit smoking... I weighed 257.6
April 10th - Attended my first nutrition class because it was required by my insurance
April 13th - Quit smoking. What better day then Friday the 13th?!?!
May 8th - Attended second nutrition class - gained 4 lbs....totally not motivated to lose weight - Weighed in at 261.6
May 16th - test to prove I quit smoking. Vist my PCP
June 12th - Attend 3rd nutrition class - gained 6 lbs - Weighed in at 267.6
July 10th - Attend 4th nutrition class - gained 2.4 lbs - Weighed in at 270
July 23rd - test to prove I quit smoking.
August 7th - Attend 5th nutrition class - scheduled surgery for 10/15/12 - gained 3.6 more lbs - Weighed in at 273.6
August 18th - Visit with PCP about required insurance paperwork - gained 1.2 lbs - Weighed in at 274.8
August 22nd - Decided I was never going to change anything, band or not, unless I was going to start making changes now - Signed up to swim 30 minutes Monday - Friday!
September 11th - Attended 6th nutrition class - scheduled preop and final nutrition class for 10/10/12. Was swimming daily Mon - Friday. Weighed in at 271.2 - lost 3.6 pounds :)
October 10th - Final nutrition class and preop. Weighed in at 265.4 - Lost 5.8 pounds
Total weigh loss prior to surgery prep - 9.4 pounds! Slow start but it was a start
October 12th - Begin 3 day clear liquid diet - I so hate broth of all kinds!!
October 15th - Day of surgery - Weigh in at 260.2 - loss of 5.2 lbs. - total loss of 14.6 pounds!
October 22st - 1 week Post-op - Weight loss of 6.2 lbs - weigh in at 254! Total loss of 20.8 lbs!
October 29th - 2 weeks Post-op - Weight loss of 4 lbs - weigh in at 250! Total loss of 24.8 lbs!
November 5th - 3 weeks Post-op - Weight loss of 0 lbs - weigh in at 250! total loss of 24.8 lbs! No worries...
November 12th - 4 weeks Post-op - Weight loss of 2 lbs - weigh in at 248! total loss of 26.8 lbs! TIPPED THE SCALE PAST 250!!! Major victory for me!!
In short - 26.8 lbs down since 8/22/12
17.4 lbs down since I began the 3 day clear liquid diet
12.2 lbs down since surgery!
So after my experience yesterday with a small peice of bread I was very well behaved today!
I started the day with a protien shake, blended broccoli cheese soup and applesauce for lunch and Cream of Wheat for dinner. I found these awesome ramakins at Ross. They hold a nice 3/4 cup.
I feel pretty good and do not have that "stuck" feeling. Thank goodness. I am currently working on getting my remaining 24 oz of water down today.
Swam for 30 minutes today and will do it again tomorrow. Tomorrow is Friday and I am so exicted for the week to be over. The weather is starting to get cold so I will be breaking out the Wii & EA Active this weekend. Have to keep at it!!
Weigh in day is Monday! Officially anyway. I have this horrible problem of weighing myself every morning. I really should stop but its so hard!!
Today I was filled. I found out I do have a 10 cc band, and the doctor put 4.5 cc's in. I am not sure if I am supposed to feel anything but so far I don't. After the doctor filled my band he had me drink some water to make sure I could get it down.
I am on a liquid pureed diet today and tomorrow then 2 days of soft foods. I go back to a regular diet on Sunday.
I had some brocolli chedder soup for dinner tonight and thought I could get away with a small peice of bread if i chewed it real well. Yeah, horrible idea! I won't be doing that again! OUCH!!! OK Lesson learned! So I will stick with the pureed liquids tomorrow.
I have been able to eat everything to this point so I think my body misled me a bit. Time to get super serious!!
Tomorrow is my first fill! I am excited about it. I have been noticing that I am getting hungry more often. This morning I had a protien shake and was hungry about 2 hours later. Then I had a salad for lunch and was hungry like 2 hours after that. Luckily I have found that if I just start pounding the water it will tide me over until I can get home and make dinner.
I came home and made mini pizza's on wonton wrappers. I was a little hesitant at first but boy they were good! I put ground chicken on 3 of them and had 2 with pepperoni as my protein and I ate about all of them. The wrapers are only 20 calories each. I saw a recipe for this somewhere, I think it was on the World According to Egg Face website.
Anyway, I will update after my fill tomorrow night. Liquid puree in the morning going to clear liquids 4 hours before my fill. Then liquid puree for 2 days and soft foods for 2 days. Back to regular foods on Monday! Just in time for Thanksgiving!!
And the winner is..... 248 lbs! 2 lbs down from last week.
Yesterday (since I was so lazy on Saturday) I worked out twice as hard. Since it snowed here in Colorado on Saturday I decided to break out my EA Active for the Wii yesterday. I did a nice workout for about 1 1/2 hours. Got the heart going and got nice and sweaty (YUCK!). But I felt so much better after I did it! And I am so sore today! Guess that means I'd better keep it up!
For as much as I hate to exercise.... I love watching the scale go down!
I guess everyone will face a challenge along the way. Last night my kids had a volleyball party to celebrate the end of the season and it was about dinner time and I did not have any "diet" food with me. So since I was starving, I had some pasta alfredo and penne with sauce. It was probably about a total of a cup. The Salad was the healthiest and the 1/2 of breadstick and the small desert I probably should have avoided.
Tonight I also had some egg noodles in my chili and I feel a little to full. Hopefully this won't have a huge adverse affect on the positive progress I've made so far.
It was so cold this morning I didnt walk either. And it is currently windy and snowing. Today was a complete lazy day. Yes, now I feel guilty!! I need to get that will power back. I'm just tired this weekend. My goal is to do twice and much exercise tomorrow. Treadmill, eliptical, and Wii Fit!
Weigh-in is on Monday. Hopefully my results will be positive.
Today was great! I find that I have more energy these days and I feel motivated to change. I have only lost 15 lbs so far but its only been 22 days since I had surgery.
I feel accomplished today too. I was able to stay away from the Halloween candy despite the many temptations around the office. I went swimming this afternoon and swam pretty hard for a solid 25 minutes. I would say moderate intensity. And went for a 1 mile walk after dinner with the hubby! I am seriously thinking of going to Zumba once a week. I have a friend that teaches the classes at a 24 hour fitness nearby. It sounds so fun. Lap Band Gal put this thought in my head!
Soft foods have been fun. Tonight I had a buffalo ground turkey burger. Nothing exotic, but it was tasty. Here are some of the foods I've had :) The first on is the Ground Turkey Buffalo Burger (With Franks Red Hot Buffalo Sauce) with la tablespoon of light ranch dressing, Cottage Cheese Oatmeal Pancakes, and a flourless crepe filled with applesauce flavored cottage cheese. I found these great small square plates at World Market along with the mini silverware! and they weren't outrageously priced!
My port site has been a little sore the last few days. I think I might have pulled something. Seems like there is a little swelling in that area too. Feels like something is pulling. I see the doctor in a week so I am holding out. It's not infected and my incisions are healing nicely. Hopefully this will go away soon.
Had a protien shake for breakfast around 11:30 and then went for a 2 mile walk and I felt great afterwards. A great start!
Out to the stores with this kids. The last few day's it seems that I get hungry more often. I haven't had a fill yet. So I don't have any restriction. And I neglected to bring an extra protien shake with me to the mall. YIKES!! My tummy started growling around 3:30 and I didn't know what to do. So I broke down and had 3 pretzel bites just to take the edge off.
That held me until about 6:30. We went to Qdoba's because I could get some soft food there. I think I made fairly good decisions. I did the you pick 2 with Chicken tortilla soup and a naked burrito with only refried beans, chicken, cheese, pico, & quac and sour cream. Not to bad. I didnt eat it all. about 1/2. The halloween candy has been hard to stay away from the last couple of days. I've minimized the amount I've had only a few bite size peices. I need to stay focus.
This blog will help with that I think. It will help me stay accountable. Good or bad, I will list it here...
I know, I know, this stage is not about losing weight right now its about allowing my stomach to heal. 2 more weeks and I go in for my follow up appointment and a fill.
Well here I go. I have never blogged before so this is a great new experience on a great new journey. I am looking forward to it. For the first time in a long time, or maybe even the first time ever, I have decided to focus on me. Not on work, or my husband, or my 3 kids, but me.
I am 40 years old, and fall into the "Morbidly obese" catagory at 257 back in April 2012. I don't think this is anything new. I've been overweight my entire life. I often think about what has brought me to this point in my life. And I continually come back to the same reasoning. For once, I wanna talk about me. Well maybe not talk, but think about me. How selfish this seems. But, I have decided to get out of my comfort zone and focus on me.
It seems everyone around me tells me I don't need to change and they all love me just the way I am. However, I want to love me. I used to think "FAT" was my middle name in highschool but looking back I would take that body over the one I have now. So, after researching the Lap band for a year and a half, and yo-yo dieting for what seems like eternity I decided to take a huge leap and change.
I began the insurance rigamarole in April 2012. 6 months of nutrition classes, tests and PCP visits. Copays galore! AND!! My doctor made me quit smoking too. Smoking was always a vice that I enjoyed having. I was majorly bummed when the doctor said I HAD to quit. Reluctantly I went to my PCP and asked for another, (yes I had tried before only to start up again within 6 months. I contribute it to stress, I have lots of excuses to continue with bad habits.) perscription to Chantix. Totally worked to help me quit smoking with minimal side affects.
Anyway, I quit smoking on Friday, April 13th, 2012. I thought this was a totally appropriate day. Afterall, everyone says Friday the 13th is the day when bad luck strikes. What better a day to make positive changes! One of the reasons I never wanted to quit was because I knew I would gain weight. Oral fixations I guess. And yes I was right, I gained 17 lbs. OMG WTF!!!
I kept telling myself in all the nutrition classes that I would start eating better and exercising this month so I could drop some weight before surgery. I told myself that 5 times. Once in April, once in May, once in June, once in July and once in August. I really hate to exercise, everything hurts....but i knew I needed to get serious, surgery was 2 months away.
I don't really have a great support system at home. No matter how much I beg the kids and my husband to please leave the junk food outside they never do. So willpower is something I must be sure to keep close. But I do have some really great friends. And they are my true cheerleaders.
One of my friends told me one day, you need to find exercise you enjoy. I mean truely enjoy. This way it won't seem like a chore. I'd never thought of that. Actually doing something I enjoy everyday. So after some serious soul searching I did find an exercise I am passionate about. SWIMMING! I swam competitivly in highschool and although competitions are out, I can compete with myself. Now where to swim??? Gyms? No, too many people. Really dont want the Michelin Man showing up at the gym in a bathingsuit plus getting your own lane is nearly impossible unless you go at 5 AM. I am so not a morning person. So an endless pool! WOW! Those things cost a small fortune. One day I will have one in my basement but not today. However, I found a great place that uses them for swimming lessons but they also offer a montly membership just to go swim for 30 minutes! OK Awesome! I found something I love to do.
After my 17 lb weight gain I settled in at the highest weight I had ever been. 274.6 lbs. YIKES!! SO, in late August I started swimming, Monday - Friday for 30 minutes. It felt so great to be back in the water regularly!! And I have to pass the pool to get home from work so no more excuses! I started really watching what I ate and how much I ate. I started paying close attention to my "full level" and my hunger signs. I tend to eat just to eat so started only eating when my stomach would rumble. It as a slow process but I was able to lose 9 lbs before a started my clear liquid diet 3 days before being banded. It wasn't much for 7 weeks but it was a start. Just over 1 lb a week. I was happy with that.
I started my 3 day clear liquid diet on October 12th weighing in at 265 lbs. Surgery was Monday the 15th. I was so excited. It's amazing how much weight you can lose on clear liquids. I don't ever want to have broth ever again, but I lost 5 more lbs that weekend! So I was down a total of 15 lbs by my surgery date, I was only 3 lbs from my pre-quit smoking weight! I'll take it!
I weighed in at the hospital (dressed in sweats) at 261.4. Pretty close to my scale at home. I was excited to have surgery and anxious to get started! I was ready! I had to be at the hospital at 8:30 AM and surgery was scheduled for 11:30 AM. The doctor was running late so I actually went under the knife at 12:30 PM. I woke in recovery about 3:15 PM. I first woke asking for my brother. I was anxious to get home and comfy in my own house. They wanted me to get something down so I had some jello. And munched on ice chips. I was so not hungry! I was finally able to leave the hospital and was home by 6 PM. I took the week off of work, glad I did too. I didn't think my belly would hurt but it did hurt to move alot. Not excrusiating but enough. The pain killers were super helpful. And being home was good practice for the pureed/liquid diet I had to maintain for the first 2 weeks.
I really was not hungry the first week. I stuck to protein shakes and non-chunky soups and lots of water. SIP SIP SIP. But I was getting 64 oz a day down! I was losing about 1 lb per day. OK Cool! I didn't do much that first week. Short easy walks. But I was up and I was moving. 2nd week I was moving more. Still losing about 1 lb a day and not really feeling hungry. I was back at work and getting along well. I was eating about twice a day. I have made it a habit to only feed myself when my tummy growls. This totally has been working for me!
3rd week I was able to start soft foods and that is where I currently am. At my 2 week weigh in on 10/29/12 I was at 250 lbs. 24lbs down since August and 15 lbs. down since I began the liquid diet before surgery. My goal is 149.5 lbs. Just to say I weigh less than 150. I am still swimming and my husband and I have began walking 1 - 2 miles every evening. I feel great and am looking forward a new life!
Thanks for listening to me rant! A friend of mine said to keep a journal and a food log. I am logging and now I am journaling!