Thank you all for your support and reassuring comments on Monday's post!
The last few day's have been sluggish. I am just so tired this week. I don't know if it has something to do with all the Sunday happenings or what. Tuesday was a run day. I just didn't have the strength of the desire to do it. I felt worn out. So I didn't make it the 3.1 miles I was trying for. I walked for 10 minutes, jogged for about 30 minutes and then rode the bike for 20. Still got a workout in but it wasn't overly exerting. Didn't swim either that day.
Wednesday we had dentist appointments and I just didn't do anything. Today was supposed to be a run day but I ran out of time at work so I am just going to swim at 3:30. So today will be kind of low key. I feel sluggish like and exhausted.
Tonight I am going to paint again. This was a last minute decision. I was supposed to go to support group but I think I would rather spend some time alone. I am going to do a painting for my mom for mothers day. This is the one the class is painting tonight.
Painting is something I have always enjoyed, but I haven't painted in 25 years. When I was in high school I use to oil paint all the time. But somehow life got in the way and I stopped writing, painting & sketching. I really do think it is therapeutic for me. And I like spending time alone. I really need to clear my head right now and get back in the right frame of mind. So tonight I will paint and have a glass of wine at the same time.
My daughter and I have spent some time together since her incident. We have had long talks and even gone out for frozen yogurt. She has been non-argumentative and is doing whatever I ask. She knows what she did was wrong and over the top and she is working to make up for it. I'm still disappointed but I know this is something most teenagers do. Hell, I even did it once when I was young. I got caught too but the consequences were nothing compared to now.
There are officially 15 days left here at my place of employment. At this point, I am ready for it to be over. It is time for a change. My nephew is moving to his fathers house this summer so our family will have a new start. A new beginning. If there is anything I have learned over the last 7 months of this journey it is that everyday is a new day, a new beginning. What better way to start that then with a new job, a new outlook on the future. The last 4 years have been pretty nightmarish and it all started when my dad passed in 2009. Since then we had a family fall out, my sister destroyed her relationship with me and my mother, she refused to let us see my nephew, she started doing drugs heavily, she was divorced, my mother had a nervous breakdown, my daughter tried alcohol & marijuana & theft, I got court ordered custody of my nephew and have been in a battle with his father for the last 11 months & I have lost my job of 7 years. I have reached my max and need something to give.
I am going to talk to someone next week. The counselor at the bariatric clinic. I think this might help in my current mind frame. I feel depressed and stressed. I have done so much to work on me over the last year that I have to keep doing that regardless of the obstacles placed in front of me. So....here's to keepin' on keepin' on!
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