So my totals are:64.0 lbs down since 8/22/12!
49.4 lbs down since surgery on 10/15/12!
I do have to say though, I think I am retaining water. The weather is getting warmer and my rings are feeling tighter. And I totally did not drink enough water this weekend!
Saturday was beautiful! It was like 70's here and I was loving it! I got up and tried to do my run and just couldn't do the full 5K. I still went 3 miles, but I only ran about 2.25 and walked the rest. And I didn't run that 2.25 all at once. It was broken up. I think I'm going to try again this afternoon. Still good that I was doing something besides sitting all weekend!
The hubby and I also took the bikes for a ride Saturday! I absolutely love being on my bike. My mind is clear and I think of nothing else except the road in front of me. We only went about 50 miles but it was relaxing! We stopped for lunch at Bakers Street Pub where he's been wanting to try and then headed home. We shared 2 deserts and brought 1/2 of those home. (Shouldn't have done that!) Then we headed home and made burgers for the kids. I was totally not hungry. But I ate a burger anyway. Just the meat but none the less I ate and I wasn't hungry. My daughter polished off the rest of the deserts we brought home thank goodness.
Unfortunately the stress that blew off of the bike came back when we got home to find that my nephew had kicked his soccer ball into our front window. So now we have to replace that! Luckily it was only the outside pane and the windows are double paned. Just not something I needed right now on top of the dreaded court costs I am expecting next week when we go to court with my daughter for her bad decision.
OK Fast forward to Sunday! Mother's Day kind of has an entirely new meaning for me this year. I am not sure what exactly it is but I think it might be the new appreciation I have for my kids and my immediate family.
I got up around 9 and got in my workout clothes, I spent 30 minutes on the elliptical and then did some bicycle crunches and a core workout that uses an exercise ball. Not sure what those are called. According to the elliptical I went about 3.4 miles, and I know the calorie burn is a bit off of what it says.
On top of all this, my husband got me a sweet card and a gift certificate to Michael's so I can go buy painting supplies to get started. There was a lot of thought put into this year.
We were headed to my mothers for Mother's Day. It was the first time since 2009 that there has been peace in our family for Mother's Day so we all got together. The first time in that long that my sister was clean, sober and wanting to be a part of our family. I made sure to bring my camera so we could document the occasion. I don't know if I will ever like pictures of me like this. I still look huge!
All in all it was a good day. When we got home I took my daughters to the store and my oldest got some permit driving time in. We were talking in the car and I apologized to her for flipping out when she got in trouble for shoplifting. She said "Mom, don't be sorry, you have every right to react the way you did and I take full responsibility for it. I would have reacted the same way if it was my daughter." And then later when I was telling her she handled the criticism from the family well during our Mother's Day dinner she said, "I'm in no place to argue with anyone. What I did was wrong." While I don't condone what she did, I am proud of her and happy with the realizations she has come to over this. It does show me that she is growing up and I don't believe we will have an issue like this again.
Later that night right before I went to bed, my youngest daughter posted this on Facebook.
It was a very emotional day for me. And I saw things differently. It was like I was on the outside looking in. I am still me and nothing has really changed. I will still have my rants, and lose my temper, and the kids and the hubby will still drive me bonkers. But maybe, we have all matured a little more this year. It was a good day.
I am making changes and working on me from the outside in, sometimes simultaneously. I even got braces last week for the second time in my 40 years. They are a little sore :)
So I will continue to search for that inner peace that we all seem to be looking for. But for now I will celebrate what I consider my first step in the right direction. Thanks for stopping by :)