OK I am going to vent for a minute. Why here? Because no one I know reads this really, at least I don't think. So here goes....
We went to dinner tonight. I received a gift card from work today and thought it would be nice to have dinner as a family. That is something that just doesn't happen often...so we went to Red Robin....well...I love my family ....really I do....but...
Everyone in our family expects support from me. Husband, kids, mother, sister, nephew, etc. But man, I ask for a little and I get nothing. Not only in the weight loss area, but in the human area too. My kids sometimes, (pretty rarely), back talk something horrible. But it is happening more often. I know they are teenagers and it is expected. But sometimes the blatant disrespect is baffling. I didn't raise them that way and if we hadn't been in the car I might have really let her have it. I would have gotten my teeth smacked out of my face if I talked to my parents like that. But it would be nice for once for the hubby to speak up in my defense. "Don't talk to your mother like that" would have been a great response. Instead I got nothing. NOTHING!!!
I am to the point I think it would be best for us to not even live together. There I said it!! I have felt it for so long and never said it! I even said it in the car and NOTHING!!! ARGH!!! I am so frustrated!!
So yes, this family doesn't feel much like a family. I know I know, this is all normal, but some days are easier to ignore than others. Today is not one of those days.
Anyway, I have figured out that stress makes my band feel tighter. This is something I have read on a lot of your blogs. But I felt it today. I wasn't hungry AT ALL today, but I ate anyway. I think I probably could have just skipped eating most of the day.
Bad food choices today! You bet!! Let the weekend sabotage begin! NO NO NO!!! At Red Robin for dinner I had 1 onion ring, a few spoonfuls of Artichoke Spinach dip, 1/2 a bacon cheese burger, a few fries, and yep I drank raspberry ice tea with dinner. The I came home and ate an entire bag of popcorn with sugar free caramel on it!! Let the guilt set in.
Nope didn't work out today either. Had to cancel my swim appointment because of work. Then had to get home to take the girls to the orthodontist, then straight to dinner an home around 9:30 pm to eat popcorn. Yes I'm tired. I didn't get all my water in either....
I was supposed to run yesterday and didn't because of my knee, didn't run tonight either for what ever reason, and now its supposed to blizzard tomorrow.
OK I'm done. Off my pity pot. Time to get back on the hamster wheel and make things move again.
Maybe it's the 2 days with virtually no exercise that have me feeling like a slug...Have a great weekend!