So needless to say yesterday was a lazy day. I didn't do much of anything except sit in my recliner and watch TV.
Today was good. I got up around 8:45 this morning and went outside to do day 1 of week 4 of the C25K. It was a beautiful day outside today. Somewhere around 60 degrees. So I opted to go outside for my run.
After reading what it entailed I do have to say, I was super discouraged! 5 min warm up walk, 3 min jog, 90 sec walk, 5 min jog, 2.5 min walk, 3 min jog, 90 sec walk, 5 min jog, 5 min cool down walk. There was no way that ME, someone that has never run a day in her life, has had knee pain just from walking, and could barely breathe, was going to be able to jog for 5 solid minutes. NO WAY!!! I was defeated before I even started today. So you know what I did, I started anyway! Those crazy ass demons that have haunted me for so long, Kept telling me that there was no way I could do this. I was so doubtful.
So I walked for 5 minutes, and jogged for 3 minutes then walked for 90 seconds, and then jogged for 5 MINUTES and walked for 2.5 minutes!!! And repeated all that again!!!! OMG I was so excited! I can't beleive I did it! Ironic that I came accross this today while I was reading thinfluenced.
And when I arrived back at my starting point 2.18 miles later I decided that I could do more! So I went back to week 1 day 1 of the C25K and did that. I walked/ran a total of 4.36 miles today! I did not run fast, and I walked when I was supposed to. And my legs burned and felt like jello when I finished. But I finished. I was proud of myself. I felt accomplished. And I burned 569 calories doing it!
I also realized my support system at home totally sucks! I was so proud of myself I came inside and told the hubby and the kids and I got nothing. My daughters both laughed and said, "your not really running mom." and the husband didn't anything at all. Nice. So glad I can count on everyone. So I sent a message to my brother telling him what I did and he boosted my confidence by saying he was proud of me and great job. Amazes me how I can get more support from total strangers but the people that are supposed to give a shit the most give nothing. Whatever thats fine. I can do this on my own! I feel great, and whether they like it or not, this is all about me. For the first time in 40 years!
Tomorrow is weigh in day: Not sure what to expect. I have been working hard to get my alcoholic binge pounds to go away. I am not expecting a loss of any kind and I am hoping to just be back where I was last Monday. Time will tell.
So I leave you with this, because for me these hit super close to home right now. Thanks again thinfluenced!
Have a great Sunday night everyone! And thanks for reading and being a great support system! It's hard to know I can't count on those I should, but good to know I am not alone! I am greatful to have "met" each of you!