Today's weigh in....215.2....gain of .2 lbs....FAIL!!! I'm really sucking at this whole thing lately. AND it is totally my fault, and I'm pissed, and I don't know what my problem is!! UGH!!
So my totals are:
59.6 lbs down since 8/22/12!
45.0 lbs down since surgery on 10/15/12!
Of course I know what I've done wrong. Last Thursday, when I weighed myself I was at 213. Yep, two lbs down.
Then, Friday, I was doing great until work happy hour due to 21 more layoffs. I went swimming and was debating about even going to the bar. I was going to pass, but I figured I should make an appearance with all the people that were leaving. BLAH! I ate/drank 3170 calories OMG!!!
The Saturday....I got up and had a great work out! I did my C25K workout twice! Started with W1D1 then did W7D2. Completed the 25 minutes total run without giving up! I was so stoked! It was a great way to come off of a horrible Friday binge! I burned 695 calories! BUT!!!! I was hungry all day! I was doing great until I got to the after dinner crave. I had 2025 calories Saturday! Chocolate covered pretzels, 100 calorie Klondike bar, Caramel chocolate bar, and caramel popcorn. And I know there is no way I was hungry when I ate all that!
Fast forward to Sunday! I got up and again had a great work out! Did the Wii Fit, Wii Zumba, and the elliptical for 20 minutes! Total workout time of 1 1/2 hours and I burned 705 calories! My body hurt after these two days! But it was a good hurt! I was doing good with my eating too! Then we met up with some friends at the Improv. Dinner was Chicken Marsala, my husband and I split it. Not too bad. But we ordered an appetizer, black bean dip, cheese queso, and spinach artichoke dip. Top that off with the 2 drinks I had, and the DQ Blizzard we stopped for on the way home and I finish a good day out at 2830 calories.
I reluctantly logged every one of them. So in summary I ate/drank 8000 calories in 3 days only burned 1550 calories.
Hence, the 2 lb gain from Thursday to today. I know Thursday was not an official weigh in day. But damn I was looking forward to today.
So, I am still hovering around that 215 mark that I may never pass. I am discouraged by my self-inflicted destructive behavior. WTF. I was doing so well and I am slacking bad. I know I can do this, I've been doing it for the last 6 months. UGH....
Today, I am at 477.50 calories as of lunch. I am going into the gym around 2:30 today to do my run, I am swimming at 5 tonight and hoping to burn about 500 calories. I will probably have a protein bar after my run and I plan on going home and making myself a buffalo chicken breast and eating about 3 oz. Maybe having a cup of Chai before bed and that's it. That will be about 900 calories for the day. IF I can NOT snack on EVERYTHING!!
I feel like a total failure. I have been so "on board" with my weight loss so far. But recently, I am slipping back into bad habits.
Yes, I know what I have to do:
1) Get a handle on my food and my snacking. My goal is to stay below 1000 calories a day. And good calories, not crap calories (like alcohol!). I really need to get in the right frame of mind here. WHY AM I STRUGGLING SO MUCH WITH THIS!?!?!?!
2) Continue to work out daily, on my swim only days I use to go home and use the elliptical too. I would finish my non-run days burning around 400 calories. I haven't been doing this. All last week, my swim days were only my swim days. My goal is to burn 400 calories a day PERIOD!! If I do more than 400 that's great!
3) Blog, blog every day. I have been slacking on my blogging. I was blogging everyday, I was writing about my food, and my exercise. I haven't been doing this. I was afraid I would be boring everyone with the same food/exercise writings every day. My life is just very routine and not very exciting, at least not to me. BUT, it was really helping me to stay accountable. So I am sorry if it will bore you. That is not my intention. I will try to throw some more exciting stuff in there now and again. But I have to do it every day.
4) I will start AGAIN! today! I will keep logging, exercising and I will blog one more time today, about my food, exercise and how I feel tonight.
I also have my 6th month post-op visit Wednesday. I am going to ask for a small fill. I know this won't solve my probelm. But I am hoping it will help....
Sorry this is so long and thanks for reading and letting me go on and on and on! I so have to get over this 215 lb hump....